Last week I was honored to read along with the other finalists (and winner) of the There Will Be Words 2015 series.
I hope you have time to check it out!
Recently I was a panelist at Litlando, a new one-day literary conference here in Orlando.
The complete conference is now on YouTube.
I sat on the Weird Fiction panel, naturally.
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It’s been a tough rough time of it
I’ve had some setbacks and
It seems to be coming around again
I just have to kick a little ass
And I should be back to
Where I was
Supposed to be
I’m so ready!
There are a few versions of me running around these days.
There’s the guy I used to be.
There’s the guy before that, who nobody liked, who has lately been using my body.
There’s the true me, the man I am supposed to be.
There’s the guy that’s trapped, brain and heart frozen. He’s the guy that wakes up every morning.
There’s the guy that everyone thinks I am. He’s nowhere to be seen (by me).
I’ve been frozen for a while now. Stuck in a place, like a ghost, haunting all the spots.
This was the year that I split into shards.
I don’t think anyone noticed. I think that’s a good thing.
I hope I can find them all, scattered across the many lives that I live.
I will pick them up, one by one, and catalog them.
I will coat them with glue and stick them together and make a whole.
If the glue dries well, you will hardly get to see the cracks.
Where the broken pieces of me have fused.
But don’t push on the pieces or they may break into many more.
You have exhausted me
I am a shell of a man
Enduring your endless
Boasts and hyperbole
You are not unique
I’ve suffered many
Like you before
Chest bowing crowing
I wonder what
Tragic event unfolded
To make you like this
What great legend speaks
I don’t understand
The need the want
Of a hole that
You must endlessly fill
You do have my pity
As I groan under my breath
Pausing to let you tell
Another moronic story
After all we are friends
And I am a man of
Honor and patience
But there are times
When I cannot help
But feel that you are as small
As you make yourself big
That comforts me
Gives me the strength
To fight at your side
Against the maws of the beast
Seeing you as less than
Makes you tolerable
But I cannot help but wonder
If it makes me egotistical instead.